Perception vs Truth
“This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence: If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.” (1 John 3:19-20 NIV)
I have always had trouble with spatial-depth perception. When my eyes are tired, my eye muscles don’t track properly. When driving, it’s difficult for me to judge the distance between cars or to tell which lane a vehicle is in. In order to compensate for this weakness, I have to limit when and where I drive. I avoid driving after dark, in busy traffic, and in unfamiliar places, unless it is an emergency.
I have noticed a similar parallel in my decision-making process. I have trouble distinguishing between truth and perception. Especially when I am stressed or depressed, everything seems fuzzy. I can’t tell if I am doing something because it is the right thing to do or because it is what I want to do. I start comparing scenarios that are vastly different and falling for the fallacy of false equivalency. I can’t trust my judgment. Knowing this about myself, I am extra cautious about my choices in times of uncertainty and exhaustion.
“Although our conscience is not infallible, God is. Our hearts may be deceived; he cannot be. He knoweth all things. An awful thought for the impenitent, a blessed and encouraging thought for the penitent, He knows our sins; but he also knows our temptations, our struggles, our sorrow, and our love.” (Pulpit Commentary)
When I feel restless, I rest in God’s presence. I am aware that my perception may be skewed and my motivations may be self-centered. Only God is infallible. He knows my temptations, struggles, sorrow, and love. I confess my weaknesses. With a penitent heart, I approach the Lord in submission and receptivity. I ask HIM to be in the driver’s seat.
Holy Spirit, take over every aspect of my life. I can’t tell when I am off-track. I don’t trust my judgment. Protect me from self-deception. When my mind is clouded, please navigate me through the darkness. Amen