Powerlessness

“I know, LORD, that our lives are not our own. We are not able to plan our own course.” (Jeremiah 10:23 NLT)

Once again, I was faced with a situation that reminded me of my lack of agency. A relative needed help, but I was powerless to assist her. I took it to God in prayer. I asked the Lord to show me if there was anything that I could do. I am still waiting for directions. Meanwhile, I continue to rely on God to take care of her.

Waiting patiently on God’s timing is something I’ve just learned to do recently. For most of my life, I’ve operated under the delusion that I have the power to affect outcomes. Life has shown me otherwise--over and over again. But my pride prevented me from accepting this truth.

I wanted to believe that I could make things happen, that I had agency, that what I said and did could make a positive impact on those around me. Well, part of that is true. My words can tear people down or build them up. My actions can be helpful or harmful.

But I can’t accomplish anything apart from God.

It’s like being in outer space. Without the medium of air, sound cannot be propagated. Thus, my words cannot be heard. Similarly, I could try to pour a liquid into a container, but without gravity, it won’t go where I direct it. The Spirit of God is the essential medium that powers everything I do.

“I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:13 NLT)

I am thankful for the lessons that I have learned through helplessness. My eyes have been opened to the power of working with God through prayer. Instead of leaning on my own understanding, I wait upon the Lord for directions. I know that my efforts are wasted unless the anointing of the Holy Spirit is on my words and actions.

I can accomplish everything that Christ has assigned to me through Him, with Him, and in Him.

Lord, help me to trust You and wait for Your timing. Grant me wisdom and patience.